PROMPT # 265

It was the one thing he coveted the most. I cannot stand that I let him get the one thing I promised myself I would never give up and that was everything. Not only am I dissapointed about this I am furious that I not only let him I practically shoved it at him to steal. I wish I never had met this boy but at the same time I wish I did. Making up my mind is no longer something I can do very well like I used to... just another thing he has taken. Our relationship started off so well with both of us at the same spot, but then everything just tripped and crashed down the steepness of mt.everest. I mean I believed we cared for each other but our worlds just could not mix without major stress, hurt, and abuse. I'm not going to sit here and say I did nothing to cause our break up but honestly how could I love someone who told me to go jump off a bridge and hopes my brains that splatter won't get on his white shirt. On a thursday I decided the only way for us to one day be okay with each other was total cut off from any type of communication whatsoever. I gave him a text that said," We're done. I don't want to see you again. We can't be friends. Don't ever text or call me again." Seriously this hurt me so much to say this because I had been attatched to him for so long that I felt like I just cut off my arm or something. Being single is now making me happy but I still have those moments where I sit there all alone and think about him. I still need to get back the one thing he coveted the most... my soul.